I know my last post was dated May 2012.. but the one before that was dated December 2011..I mean wow, it does look bad with me keeping time or track of time. But truth is after 2011 ended...the start of 2012 was just normal until something really unexpected took place that it took a turn for me.. which i tried hard not to think about it completely. The start of March 2012, my mother took ill.. she was already diagnosed with kidney failure due to her long time battling with high blood pressure. But sometimes people say, when you got people standing strong with you battling the illness it seems alot easier.. as you know they will always have your back no matter what. But somehow due to some unforeseen circumstances, my mother was taken really ill that she was admitted in the hospital. I was shocked and rushed immediately to her. She wasn't looking good. I was completely crushed. I knew my mother needed me now more than ever. Being a working person myself, i put my mother before everything.. I thought if i loose my job, so what? I can always find another one..but if i loose my mother? I couldn't complete that thought... So for what seemed forever, i traveled back and forth from KL and Ipoh and attending overnight to my mother in the hospital. My husband was very supportive and came over to help as well. One fine day.. to my surprise, i ended up in the hospital with an epileptic seizure. The first attack. I knew it was due to the stress and lack of sleep i was in taking care of my mother. That night i was admitted myself, my mother's illness took a toll for the worst. The next morning I found out from a casket guy that my mother had passed away. I was devastated! I immediately checked out of the hospital and rushed to see her. I was so sad that they had already wrapped her up with the cloth. I couldn't even see her. Then we started to attend to the necessary.
It wasn't the same from that day forward. My best friend was gone forever. I had no one to talk to. I mean yes i have my husband, but it wasn't the same. After all the prayers was over, the next one wasn't for a months time. I thought to take my mind off the lost, a vacation would help. So my husband and i, we decided to go to Kota Kinabalu, Sabah. It was already a trip bought through the Groupon when it was in promotion.
It was a nice get away.. We both enjoyed the trip.. going to the foot of the mountain and seeing it so close, and did other activities like walking through a hanging bridge which my husband was terrified off.. and so was I. On the way back we were late as there was a landslide that cause the road to be closed for clearance and we were scared that we're gonna miss our flight as we didn't anticipate such an event. And the taxi driver suggested another road but apparently it was further and to make it in time he started driving very fast. I felt like i left my heart at the foot of the Kota Kinabalu mountain.. I started praying hard to god to bring us safe to the airport and while at it..i also asked that i wish i was pregnant. I felt like he was listening and i should take advantage of the moment. And to my amazement I found out that I was pregnant after coming back from KK. My husband and i, we were speechless. I felt it was a miraculous moment being in Kota Kinabalu and that the spiritual energy gave what i wanted and wished for the most.
And with that i shall end today's post.. catch me on the next.
