I know what you're thinking... "really? Isn't it too early to have this talk?".... yea... this time i gotta agree with you. It is kinda early to talk about this, but somehow when you're at that turn-point you can't help but to ask where is this life is leading to.. Hmmm i wonder, what if i took all the opposite directions, what if i chose the other option than the ones i have chosen all my life...where would it have landed me.... somehow i feel like there wasn't much that would've been different looking at how my life turned out....i guess... or would it? Don't you have that feeling? Like instead taking the bus, you decided to drive or ... instead of having dinner alone, you decided to call a friend.. or instead of doing engineering, you did performing arts to begin with... would you have been the same? I suppose i'm questioning all the choices i have ever made? Was it meant to be? Being Hindu, it doesn't help as i'm suppose to say that they're meant to be as Hinduism believes in karma and consequences... so it's only rationale to say that life made me choose these choices and today have landed me where i am.. bummer...
Even though my choices landed me here... what would i call my life?? Perfect? Awesome? Sucks? It does makes you wonder..... should i remain sane, optimistic or should i be a little crazy and insane on my choices? Right now i'm at a cross-road...and i'm thinking hard, should i do this or not? Would it lead to where i am hoping it would or would it be awful and it's too late to change anything because i'm way deep and it's not the direction i want to be in... I need some advice... i'm thinking if i should my do my phd... truth is it isn't all the confusion, just that the choice of field seems a little "new" to me... a little out of my comfort-zone too.... so should i do it? will i regret it later? would i need to consider a new career then? Would that mean i would have to struggle a little to get there like leave the current job? I know any phd study wouldn't be as easy as saying it... 4 years of hard-work.. i guess it isn't easy when you're on your own... nothing is...
I wish i have people to help me... to share the thoughts... get ideas... I wish...
This is so true.... don't you agree? I must say i only got like 2 really good friends whom i can truly rely on time of need. That doesn't mean that i'm not friendly just that i realized the worth of some and decided it's not for me. I'm not selfish either... just that when you got friends that constantly expect things from you but do not engage in any other selfless activity then you know your true friends.. That's how i learnt. The hard way.
